sincere question of repentance

Re: Letter from mom

 so sounds like Church was good for you all, thats good, I thought it was cool to talk to you guys good times. well thanks for waiting so long, we were there trying for a while too but when I could finally talk it was really cool it made my day and thanks Mom for being there at the end of the day still, that really made me feel happy to see that you were still there at the computer screen, it made me think of how much you guys have taught me and loved me and stuff and in Church the same feeling as I thought about the way the Lord has talked to me. Sometimes I have felt like after trying so long you look and someone is there on the other side still and it makes you feel pretty motivated, this is hard for me to describe for some reason but it just reminded me of the similarities life has with the mission and how those small moments of communication with your earthly or heavenly family are gifts mercifully given rather than some sort of achievement I have gained after my hard work. What I mean to say is you may try to fix the computer as hard as you can but it just doesn't work or you try to fix your life as hard as you can but you JUST DON'T FIX IT ALL THE WAY and you will never get to enter God`s presence that way and in the end the screen just pops up for trying all you could. so that is what I wanted to say. I know that you and Dad and Heavenly Father love me a lot so thanks for teaching me that. it helps me a lot, like I say mercy is a sign of love and that gives me motivation. Love you chow there isn't too much time to write more, here is what happened, well a little of this week that I liked the translation is not very clear so sorry. 

google translate:
this week was pu-rete for me and Christmas was one of the best apart from that I am also encouraged to start again the Book of Mormon and this time studying the depths, last time helped me so much especially in my teaching, I testified with more power to witness and gospel knowledge, I learned much of mercy and necessity of living the gospel before. or also this Saturday did a split with Elder M, despite the many problems he is going now, we had a purete division and in the morning when we left I felt an impression should visit a researcher and her Mom a less active but Do not bend yet to go home but spent another street that impression came again just down the street from your home then told hm going to pass that way and the lesson went very well, never visit them in the morning but were, her mother and her daughter in law, and could teach everyone. Mom said she wants to go to church again to renew their agreement and daughter shared some experiences that I could just understand and relate a lot and have felt that it is not the only one. she also had a very sincere question of repentance Elder Monson could answer with a story in the Bible. I like the way Teaching Elder M and the end of the lesson the daughter said quieria finally be baptized, Elder R said that if or whether he would baptize but was much more purete hear their own VOCA. I know that the spirit I speak, I speak also helped me when I hear other times this week, sometimes it sounds very clear but as I said much depends on my desire, if I listen but I know that missionary work should be so and I'm trying to improve on that. but I feel I'm better.

saved by grace

sweet, sounds like a whole lot a fun!  The kid that got baptized is doing good, 

also yeah that is cool that M is getting married and that K got her endowments out, I remember really well when I got mine out. I had a time on my mission where I think the Lord taught me a lot about His grace. Once I had a companion share a great talk about perfecting ourselves in el momento oportuno  I like the last 2 verses in Moroni, I think the motivation in becoming perfect  is love, that is what we need if we want to apply the Savior`s grace. Also one has to understand that you will not fill the demands of justice ever. You always need to apply mercy, it is the basic objective of missionary work if you ask me, so that when people find themselves on judgment day they can be saved by grace. As you know, grace should always be applied, not just at the end. 

I  had a time on my mission where I was trying to be pretty obedient, my companion helped me a lot and it seemed like the more I tried the more I failed. Every morning I missed some sort of rule and they were usually simple things that I missed, it was an interesting time for me, day after day of failing made me feel like I wasn't doing good enough. It made me wonder how some people could ever say they were exactly obedient. But anyway after some praying and stuff the Lord helped me a lot, lots of stuff happened like for example my companion showed me a talk, I also found some awesome scriptures that talked about enduring to the end and gave me a good perspective on things. like I said the thing that I found is you need love or charity, the other types of motivation seem to have to do more with justice and love with mercy. The last door will be mercy is basically what I learned so that is a fun topic love you 

ready to hear more

The following email letter was copy and pasted into google translate. He sent it all in spanish!!

think the area is very much ready for success and changed lives , I know that everything good that has happened is the Lord and reminds me of an interesting contact I had . contact felt the house, a secure feeling as wise as it should contact . It seemed like nobody was then when we hit hands there and no one came , I thought hm because I felt this house , we will strike again and finally came a young man , we could make a little like starting and seems ready to hear more , just came out of jail and he said he spent many prebas , this makes me think that he has been humiliated. I know that the Lord is trying to teach me to take initiative much, just have to do it with more faith and love. I have improved a lot in my sincerity , and that gives me a lot more power. I also liked the writing Corinthians we read today is a good way to see the people. thanks

how to enjoy learning

well it was a good week, I am learning a lot here. there is a lot of potential here, it is really fun we had a couple divisions one, I went with Elder D, it was fun. I remember when we were sort of like half companions a while ago so it was good to do another division, it was fun for me to see how he has improved and it was also cool because we found a new investigator that seemed pretty prepared. Elder D has become a good friend. Then we had a division in our area, I went with Elder R it was also a good division we found a less active family and a bunch of other potential people. like I said this area has a lot of potential. Also the studies are going pretty good, there is not so much time as I had but when I can study it is really fun, I feel like that is something I have learned here on my mission, how to enjoy learning. I think it is funner now to meditizar scriptures also I am going to have to keep meditizando. Also something important I noticed yesterday is that the scriptures I have in my head are now things that can come to my head again and again and maybe the Spirit can inspire me to share them, the same goes with the things I have been studying. I like how everything about the Gospel is solid truth, yesterday I started repeating the DyC 19:31 and I got a pretty good feeling, as though I just barely starting to understand what it is saying. It is talking about mercy a little bit not just justice, we talk about the only way to happiness that is why we don't need to talk about dogmas. I know that the Gospel is the only way to feel happy in this life. 

preaching His words as if He were here

well this was a good week for me, I learned so much stuff, since changes so I got called to another area, in a white wash so here I have been like a week now, really great place lots of nice people, and something awesome is that my great friend Elder M finished his mission here, in fact when I got here to the new house we started unpacking I realized I was in his desk, it was a pretty cool experience because he is a missionary that I really looked up to, he was a good example and a good freind so when I noticed that he left some stuff like his pencil holder and an empty journal it was a cool feeling, I felt like I was sitting in his spot, I started to think of some of the things I learned when I was his companion, and really I gained a lot of valuable parts of my testimony and it started to make the mission really worth it for me at that time, I learned a lot about mercy and how to gain knowledge from the Lord. then thinking a little more I feel grateful that I am here in the mission standing in the spot where Christ would have stood and preaching His words as if He were here. I am definetly not perfect like Him but thankfully to Him I can be, so He has called me here to learn some important things and practice living and sharing His Gospel.  we have been learning about that as a mission lately in our studies it is really cool and motivating to learn about.

success comes from perfection and the Atonement

well this was a great week for me, I really am starting to learn how to enjoy things more, I think I have basically just been trying to love the people more, I remember Elder B when he mentioned how he started enjoying the mission more when he did the same in a district meeting, now that I remember that I think it is really cool the things I am learning are really important to me now, I don't think Ill forget them. when I got here I thought that some of the people here were mocks honestly, I didn't really treat them wrong or anything as far as I could remember but when I got here I could tell how it may be hard to get along with them because we didn't agree on obedience. It happened that way also and I tried to solve the problem by being nice and humble, I think I respected their agency. after a while one said to me that I need to do a lot more than just obey the rules, that you have to help the people and find their needs, and that day in my study the Spirit led me to a scripture about opening your mouth and saying what you feel in your heart and the Spirit will be able to testify of what is said. I then felt like I ought to be more humble, what the person had told me was partly true some of the other things where probably not inspired but the Spirit told me to be humble. That all happened, I have been trying to say what I feel now, what is inspired, I have found more confidence as I unconditionally say things, not thinking of myself but of if it is what the Lord wants me to say because that is what will help them and me in the best form. I really do feel happier inside now, I haven't changed as much as I want to yet but now I understand a lot more. yesterday I did a study and opened up to some stuff in Gospel Principles, the part on obedience and I started reading about the greatest commandments, and the study was really good for me, I felt like it confirmed most of the things I learned in this change, and I figured out that he who keeps the commandments unwillingly and does not do it to serve the Lord will lose the reward. the Lord will command us to do things although we may not know why we can always obey for the right reason. Now since maybe three weeks or so I have decided that there are no mocks, there are people just like me that lack something in a certain area such as understanding and we are children of God with a ton of potential. Those who are successful are not always perfect but their success comes from perfection and the Atonement. one of my favorite examples would be Abraham who was obedient although he loved his son he knew the Lord knew better and he obeyed because he loved the Lord he was blessed to understand better perhaps what kind of love the Lord has for us in sacrificing His son and Abraham´s blessings now are beyond comprehension. as all those who love the Lord Corinthians 2:9 is a good scripture and even better d&c 132:34-37 well anyway I thanked this person, I hope his life goes good, he might not like me a lot but who cares I have learned to be a lot happier and this missionary will probably some day realize the good he did   

thanks it sounds like you are all doing good. this week was a good one. I learned some things I never thought about before, like some cool counsel I received and some deep doctrine stories I heard. Anyway we have some people that look like they are progressing, one person named A is a little girl that will most likely get baptized, she is really funny and her aunt seems to be reactivating also, I am happy for them it is cool to see them progress as a family, they are fun to visit and teach. Another person we found this week came to Church she just needed a little help and a ride to Church and she hasnt come in like 2 years, she is older but she has an awesome testimony that she told us, where she described how she died and they sent her back, she had prayed that she would be able to raise her kids and so she had, now though it is a bit sad because she is separated and we noticed she was crying a bit before we dropped by to visit, she feels bad sometimes, she cant do a lot by herself and probably feels really alone. we explained the obvious, how God doesn't leave us alone, and I think it helped her but her coming to Church was really great for her. Church was cool for me too, I really have to think hard to feel good sometimes, and it just shows how much I need the Gospel, in the second class we had I was trying to really enjoy things and focus on what the Lord was saying, It was cool how the Spirit testifies of simple things like ´´the Lord can change a heart´´ that is something that stood out to me in the lesson because I think that is what I needed to hear. and that little phrase helped me feel and understand better the Atonement, that stuff is priceless it is impossible to teach with out the Spirit.  this week was a good one, we had a good time in Church, just a bit at a time the Church here has been growing